Why Must I Be Like That?

Ack. Gah. Blech. A very kind girl, Jacqueline, sold my CDs and took some videos for me at the Jazz Fest yesterday. She wouldn't even take a tip for her efforts. I woke up early (couldn't sleep well, and have to take my son to soccer camp this week) and decided to risk looking at the videos. While I have seen worse of myself, and maybe there's one or two I could post, it's just so damn painful. I feel like salsa turns out more or less well, but the other singing is just so imprecise. Some of it could be nerves, and the noise. I don't know. The comments after the show were nice, people said I had great energy, one woman said I sounded like Basia, and I sold a lot of CDs, so that's an indicator the performance wasn't vile. But later in the day I saw Manhattan Transfer. They were amazing. What I want to know is, how do I sound like that in performance? I was checking out Janice Siegel this morning. What a voice, what control, what range, what an instrument! She's like Annie Ross.

I guess later today I'll show the videos to my husband and see what he thinks. He'll either say yeah you were too keyed up or aw it's not so bad. I doubt he'll say good God that's the greatest performance since Pavarotti sang N'Essun Dorma.